Breaking Silence | Relationships

“Stay within the sphere of grace I have called you to walk in. Don’t allow your natural affections or love to pull you away from the divine assignment on your life”- John Bevere, “The Holy Spirit” book

This has been undeniably the thing that keeps me “bee-lining to destiny. No, I am not called to singleness. Yes. That is a bold and transparent statement. But without transparency how can we walk in freedom? I am broken in more ways than I can share or begin to explain. But I am completely taken over by the Love of Christ. It’s unexplainable but, I am. And because I have His love containing me, I can stay the course. Not bending or settling to the desires of life that may or may not distract me from the purpose that was set for me before the beginning of time. Am I saying that it’s easy? Absolutely not. But I know who I am and Whose I am.

My thoughts have been churning deeply around the thoughts of marriage and relationships. My resolve is this: Our earthly relationships are meant to compliment us. Not fulfill us. But why do we crave love. I’m saying what some may be thinking. And that’s okay, because whoever you are, you are not alone.

God created us so His presence can fill us, and though it may not always be tangible, He is ever present. We were made with a God sized hole that only He can fill. 

When I first became a Christian, I was dating a guy that did not believe as I did and to the demise of my heart, I had to walk away, thinking that whomever was going to capture the fancies of my heart, needed to at least be a Christian. I was 17. And completely naive. A month later, I dated a “Christian” by label only, not by lifestyle. And this time, I was forced to walk away, circumstantially.

At 17 anImaged 18, relationships, are everything. Well, that and education. Still hoping, but still so oblivious to Who I truly needed to be in a relationship with. I pursued yet another relationship with another “Christian” guy. Wrong again, for two reasons:

| I pursued |

| The label Christian did not match up to the lifestyle, Christian|

So at 19, I was over it or at least, I tried to be. Because that summer, I still felt so, so empty. I knew that I had a relationship with God but I didn’t understand that He was “The One.” The One, that can fully satisfy me and fill the void I felt inside. It’s not after another failed attempt at being filled with the presence of another “Christian” guy that I was truly done with pursuing the title I thought would change the dynamic of my young, young life.

And so here it is, 9 years later, imperfectly finding my way to His heart and still reminding myself of truths I need to remain “happily single” until such a time is over. I am no longer naive to the things I thought would make me whole. I am Completely Loved and Filled by The One. Jesus.  Revelation? I think so.

Anchored in Zion

Renee Jael


He is forever good…..

Where God dwells and Salvation Comes from

Anchored In Zion

It’s either I am a bit dramatic, or life has been in full speed, no reservations. While waiting for expectations to be met, they have become disappointed, and while waiting for those expectations to be exceeded, I am still waiting.

In everything there is a lesson. Nothing is wasted. Not with God. I won’t say that I always understand why God does not give what we ask, even though He says ask and it shall be given. {Welcome to my thoughts} But His word does not return void. There are more promises met, than unmet. More things given than not. Uncompromising Love. Immeasurable grace. And so what do we do we feel like it’s all going in circles. Be thankful anyway, and still believe.

He is forever GOOD. Expectations met or not.

{But those who wait for the Lord’s help find renewed strength; they rise up as if they had eagles’ wings, they run without growing weary, they walk without getting tired.} (Isaiah 40:3 NET)

Anchored in Zion

R Jael

Keep Calm and Carry on

Unfortunately, I’ve had too much to say that I have not said anything. Nor written it. and today there Imageis no better time than 5:18 am on 5/18 to say exactly how I feel. Well not exactly, but I will say this. Change is the one thing that I have not gotten used to.

Change has frequented its way into our lives without our permission or consent. Without enough preparation or adequate time to make us ready for it. There is only one thing to do….”Keep Calm and Carry On”.

Big sighs from my heart. As my life is yet again changing. And yet I find myself lost for words. I guess I will have to write them along the journey. The only thing that comes to mind is this one truth and unchangeable fact that will rest and steady my soul until I open my eyes in heaven.

‘And WE KNOW that all things work together for GOOD for those who LOVE God, who are called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28

Hope this will strengthen your heart as well.

Anchored in Zion

Renee Jael


Recently, a conversation alluded to an individual being limited to what they can and should do because of their course of study. Well. One thing I know is this, God is neither limited nor intimidated by our knowledge or lack thereof. God will qualify the willing to do His will. And that’s all there is to it. There as been a reoccurring revelation that God is not limited to my abilities, gifts or talents, in fact He “starts at impossible”-Christine Caine.

God is the author of your purpose, not well meaning opinions. Though in the multitude of counsel there is success, your counsel should be in tune with the word and will of God.

Blessings to you
Anchored in Zion
Renee Jael

And it dawned on me..

The moment you see yourself as God sees you, strengthens you and blessed you. How do I know?

Let’s just say I have a recent experience. Small revelation, big impact.

His opinion is the only one that matters when it comes to following the vision He gave you. Of course, there is success in godly counsel but our first and final word should come from Him. Validated only by Him. 

I’m strengthened to live another day, creatively and complety dependent upon Him. My “Victorious Savior”.

My challenge to you today is to ask God to show you how He thinks of you. I assure you, it will wreck every other lie you’ve believed.

Anchored in Zion
R Jael

No secret

I think sometimes we tend to think God does not want us to know the next step or His will. Not necessarily by what we say but by what we think and do.


Today I was reminded by a dear friend of that very fact. His will is no secret. It’s written in His word His desires for us. Sometimes the details can get in the way: where, when, how, who… Are questions that I have been asking. You see, I’m going to choose not to be overly concerned about all the details, but simply ask for the next step. No mind knows His thoughts but we can discern His will as we seek Him.
Jeremiah 29:11-13. Seek Him with all your heart. He won’t play hide and seek but He will gladly draw near to you as you draw near to Him (James 4:8)

Psalms 78:72 [ESV]

With upright heart he shepherded them and guided them with his skillful hand.

My challenge to you today: ask Him for the next step. And walk boldly.

Blessings and love to you
Anchored in Zion

I’ve never met someone who didn’t want love

I’ve never met some one who didn’t want to be loved. Or wanted to be wanted and fullfilled. Accepted. Respected. Honored. Appreciated. Treasured.

I’ve been tempted to find love in people. That doesn’t fulfill. It disappoints. And while it has been years since I’ve ‘loved’ that way. I still see it. And I see true love rejected. That kills me.

True love still loves after its been rejected. It’s name is Jesus. He is relentless. And while His love make no sense to us. Many accept it by faith. (Saved by grace through faith Eph 2:8)

John 15:9 [NASB]

Just as the Father has loved Me, I have also loved you; abide in My love.

My challenge for us today: pray for those who need true love. And that is, pray for us all. Because though we know true love through faith, we still need His love that overflows…and fulfills…

R Jael
Anchored in Zion